Lost

Today I feel lost. This weekend has been emotionally hard for me. I lost my grandfather, and all at the same time realized that the paternal side of my family wants nothing to do with me... and I don't know why. I feel rejected by people I always felt close to growing up, and that hurts in a big way.

SG started my Sunday off rather cryptic. He told me that he and his ex fought all night they came to the conclusion they are going to sell the house. In reality this should make me happy, but sadly I know this is not going to happen anytime soon. He was quiet and distant on the phone. I asked him what was wrong and he just said that he missed me. THAT was 7 hours ago.

He said he was going to work in the yard and do some laundry and call me after while. He never goes this long without calling me. I tried to call him but he doesn't answer. *sigh*

I have been here before. The waiting for a call that doesn't come. The waiting for a happy ending that doesn't come. I can't take any more rejection this week. I am going to bed.